Thursday, July 15, 2010

Really? It's been this long already?

I was getting the girls ready for bed tonight...baths, comb hair, brush teeth, argue about one more song...the usual routine.  As I was laying down next to Sabrina (part of the 'routine') I was struck by the fact that I could hardly remember what it was like before they were born.  I love my girls, don't get me wrong, but this was not a totally heartwarming realization.  That makes me horrible, doesn't it?  It's just that, Sabrina is 4 now.  Almost 5.  How is it that 4 1/2 years can practically obliterate so many more years of memories???  My husband and I will joke every now and then with thoughts like, "Do you realize how much money we would have right now if we never had kids?" or "Do you remember when we would just be finishing a shower, for ourselves, to get ready to be going out at the same time we are now putting kids to sleep and wishing we could follow right behind them?"  How is it that 4 1/2 short years with these little people can make me almost forget any of what was once JUST me...and him too I suppose?  Does that person still exist?  Do I want her to?  Do I need her to?  I was not wild and crazy, but I did have stuff I liked to do.  And I know I can still do the things I liked to do, but it's different now.  If you're a mom, people can tell you all the time, "Oh, you need to take your 'me time'", but we all know that never works out as well as it sounds.  Truthfully, I don't need a lot of me time right now.  Heck, I don't even really want me time right now, but tonight's thought while I was snuggling with Sabrina just left me feeling a little nostalgic bittersweetness perhaps...I wouldn't trade my girls for all the carefree evenings in the world, but darn it's nice remembering when the only thing I HAD to do after work was drive home.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Checking back in

I've been distant...nothing personal, but I want to be back. What's happened since my last post??? Oh yeah, I had a baby! Another girl. She is 7 months old now and adored by all in the house...right down to the dog. Poor Shelby...another baby who likes to pull on jowls. It's her own fault. If she didn't stick her face in the baby's to lick off whatever goodies where missed by the washcloth, she wouldn't get her jowls grabbed.

So what do you get when you have 3 girls?? An onslaught of "So, ya gonna try for that boy?" Am I the only one who thinks this is a horrible message for our children? Sorry girls, you weren't good enough so we had to try again to get one with a Y chromosome. Or how about the message to the youngest child? We only had you to see if we could get a boy, but we kind of had to keep you. But when you're pregnant all these people come out of the woodwork with, "Oh, it doesn't matter what the baby is as long as it's healthy." Apparently, that is only the case UNTIL the baby is born. After the birth it seems to matter a LOT what the baby is. Even my oldest is chiming in.

her: "Mommy, I want a little brother."
me: "Why?"
her: "Because, I don't have one."
me: "We don't have a cow either but that doesn't mean we are going to get one for the back yard." 
her: "MOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!

So what do you think? If you only have boys or girls, what do you say to those who put their 2 cents in about pro-creating until you have the opposite sex? Does not having a child of the opposite sex bother you? Do you love it? Share your thoughts.